Wow, we are already 3 days into the 4th month of the year. The end of last month brought a close to the first quarter or 20Eleven. So what went on?
I had a read back through the blog posts that I have written since the turn of the year. Actually I read everything from Boxing day to now… what a journey it has been. This year has seen the most amount of miles covered for me in such a short period time. How things have changed so much during that travelling too. Relationships and friendships that I have lost, by choice or not. But also of those that I have met, become close too (some again ^_^) and the places I have seen.
The turn of the year saw me in Canada with some newly made friends there. During that time I cut some ties with people too, for the best it seems as I look back at it. At the time, I was pretty destroyed and couldn’t get the words out into my blog. It seems now, I can’t shut up. That is something that I have been told to do. Someone (^_^) has always said that I should speak more openly about what goes on in this head of mind. I have taken her words to heart now and realise that I should just come out and say what I think more often. As I read back through the posts of January I realised that in doing so I can actually be quite funny. It is, however, not very cool to laugh at your own jokes… but some of the stuff that I wrote was, and still is, amusing, even if I do say so myself.
Miles spent dashing around the country and a ski-ing adventure to France was witnessed and then we rolled into February. This is when I started to build on a new desire that had come back to light in my own mind. Nothing had actually happened, it was just the throughout of what could be maybe? even if it is going to be quite the task to do so.
When you get down about things, it can take time for you to set them straight and I feel like I have finally done it. It hurt but I got there. I pretty much used the month of February to find my feet after a shaky start to the year.
For those that witnessed some of what was going on, Dani & Tino, I thank you indefinitely for helping me through that. Your words of encouragement hit home for me. It was what I needed to sink my teeth back into what was going on around me. I owe you guys a new carpet at some point too lol, and sorry about squeezing your hand a bit too much Dani lol. Big love to you guys. Not to mention the man himself – Bally. One of the nicest guys you can have in any arsenal of friends, you can always rely on. You’ve always got us lot about for you mate.
Whilst I’m on the topic of thanking people, my dad and sister have to be in here too. My dad is the best dad in the world. That cliché that is seen on the side of a coffee cup or on a fathers day card is the truth about my dad. My idol. If I acquire half as much in my life as you continue to acquire in yours, then I’ll be more than happy, thank you for always being there.
The little sister, my rock in life. Everything I do in my life I put it down to you. To help me through the tough times is an underestimation, you literally hold my hand and drag me through it. The phone-calls around christmas meant so much to me. You helped me so much and I’ll thank you forever for it. You are always there for me, love you and Jim so much.
I know this looks like a suicide letter, it is not lol. Just in a writing mood and got the appropriate music on to help out.
A big thank you to Ben, my brother from another mother. The greatest of blokes I’m lucky enough to call my brother. You have kept me on track more than you may think, thank you mate. Oh, and thanks to your rents and little Amy too, you are always good to me.
So I have rambled on for a bit now, there is no eventual outcome of this. I just have an urge to write. The turn of the month is a good way to look back and see where we have been. So I’ll continue with March.
March was better than expected. I had truly got over what went down in Dec/Jan and February was a thing of the past. I did read that the reason that February is the smallest month… yeah, it is because it is the shittest. ‘Oh look at me, I’ve only got 28 days and the day of commercial Valentines bullshit.’ Fuck off February lol. Anyway, back to March… What happened there? Bit of a Rant coming through lol. So yeah March…
Got about to see some peoples that I haven’t for a while and glad that I did. I have no reason to hide anymore that I’m on the path to build bridges in Hereford again. Many reasons for it and to be honest I am looking forward to sorting it out, because I will. Tired of things being crap with family. It has been that way with us for years, not anymore. Problem being is that I am on the other side of the planet, but that is not an excuse. Prepare for a barrage of letters and emails UK, it is happening.
So that is the part one over, I literally wrote a list of what I want to talk about. I miss having Rants too, so I’ll be throwing them in part two, but mainly part three. haha.
Check back in about an hour for the next instalment.
London. ^_^